I can't believe it has been a few days since my last post. Once we got back from the doctor Thursday afternoon, our bodies sort of gave out. Not sick...just fatigued. The adrenaline rush of the past few weeks is gone and we crashed! We'll say farewell to the Best Western in an hour or so (she's been good to us). The "hairplane" will depart for Jackson around 3:30 p.m. which will put us back in Hattiesburg around 7:00 p.m.
The past few days have been good for us, a kinda of decompression period for our bodies and minds. During this time, God's been teaching me a lot about the "heart". I've spent the past 5 years selling cardiovascular medications and the past 2 years praying for Max's physical heart. I've been listening to some teachings by John Ortberg in recent days. God's used him to speak some truths concerning my heart. Max's physical heart is healed, but we all have a spiritual heart that needs daily healing.
Think about this...22 days after you were conceived, a tiny little electrical pulse stimulated the heart muscle, the myocardia, of your left and right atria to contract. It’s called an "atrial kick" and it forced blood into your ventricles. That movement was so faint that it could not be detected, even with amplification, but it was, in fact, the first beat of your heart, only 22 days after you were conceived and it’s never stopped from that day until now—70 milliliters of blood with every contraction, 14,000 pints being pumped every day, 100,000 beats of your heart every day from that day to this one. God gave us these amazing gifts called our hearts, our physical hearts. We try to manipulate and control our many aspects of our life, but we can’t control the beat of our heart (thank God!).
Is anyone reading this a little absent minded at times? Ever forget where your car keys are, where you are parked, where the car is, where the kids are? Imagine if our hearts only beat when we remember to tell it. We would be in serious trouble. But they don’t. God just created them so that that beat goes on whether we are aware of it or not. It’s a gift from God.
But God didn’t just give us a physical heart. God gave us all a spiritual heart. There is an inner me, there is an inner you, that part of you that chooses, that part of you that devotes, that part of you that commits, that part of you that wills, and the truth is that no matter how well you take care of it, your physical heart is going to wear out someday. It’s going to stop beating sooner or later. But your spiritual heart, the core of the core you—that goes on forever. I think that’s what the writer of Proverbs means when he says:
Above all else guard your heart for it is the wellspring of your life. PROVERBS 4:23 Don’t worry so much, the writer of the Proverbs is saying, about how you are doing in terms of security, physical health, material well being, all of that stuff. That has its place. But above all of that, the top of the list, the first priority is guard your heart, watch your heart, care for your heart because your whole life flows out of your heart. So the question is,
What’s the condition of my heart, my spiritual heart, my heart for God and my heart for people?Max's physical heart is healed, but please don't stop praying for his heart. I pray that all 4 of my children's heartbeat would be that of our Father's. That Max would one day understand this simple truth: as high and as far as today's "hairplane" ride will take him, it pales in comparison to the flight God has planned for his life!
Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint. ISAIAH 40:30-31